goddamn if i don’t need a squad
we’d solve the problem for them
wouldn’t wait for wrist-slap justice
aries: drunk edgy retro adventurer
taurus: electric pixie retro zombie
gemini: 70’s lolita wannabe witch
cancer: plain goth circa hipster
leo: dirty dubstep bi punk
virgo: apocalyptic steampunk winter disaster
libra: 40’s fantasy stoner ghoul
scorpio: vintage vodka surrealist royalty
sagittarius: magical destructive retrofuturist superhero
capricorn: decadent anarchist sick revolutionary
aquarius: post-apocalyptic anarchist teen monstrosity
pisces: 90’s grunge sick geek
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have you ever met a person that you’re forced to mantain a level of cold civility towards but if you could you would totally punch them as hard as you could but you can’t so every second you’re forced to be around them you’re thinking of smashing their face in just so they’ll shut up
the worst thing about tumblr is that you read all those pro feminist/anti rape/anti misogyny posts all the time everyday and then you actually go outside and talk to a random guy and it feels like being punched in the face with a chair
i’m supposed to be on a school-approved sabbatical but all i can do is think about how loathe i am to return on friday. i’ve talked with my counselor about potentially taking morning courses instead of noon ones but that fucks my life up because i have so many appointments of my own and for my mom already set through late next month ready to go.
i left in angry tears yesterday after finally reaching my breaking point with the most consistently misogynistic and repulsive asshole i have ever met in real time. of course, his friend (also the guy who was relentlessly after me in a romantic fashion, who i had been turning down since the day i met him like nearly two-three months ago, who has talked to me, a black female, about how much fun he had doing blackface and referring to people, most likely black, as ‘ghetto rats’ and having his creeper friend legitimately proposition me with money to go out with him) was all up in my face for having the audacity to confront him. i went about it in a way i’m not personally proud of but after the series of legal, financial, and stresses i face as someone who cares for a disabled parent, i had nothing else to give.
i also wasn’t suprised that a so-called ‘friend’ of mine (internalized misogyny off the charts, will literally always take the side of anything with a penis, especially if i’m involved and am not having anything they’re attempting to peddle, i sincerely wish i were exaggerting) was also taking up for him. she’ll complain to me about how disrespectful and crude this guy is, how he creeps her out by calling her telling her inappropiate things, how he will rub himself up against her behind if she makes the ‘mistake’ of wearing her gym gear to class.
she had a similar reaction to a gross instructor we had for our internship, and when we had an opportunity to do something about it, she quieted and when i tried to volunteer information to our genuinely great boss, she stopped me.
i am just legimtimately sick of everything and everyone. even people who aren’t as actively gross irritate me due to their complicity in tolerating it.
my counselor said she’d address the issue, and i believe she will, but to what extent that will actually change anything, i don’t know. i don’t want to uproot anything i’ve set in place, because i did so with great care, and i don’t know if i’d be facing a worse situation in the morning class, and i don’t think i could handle walking into anything worse.